Disclaimer: Gundam Wing is the property of Sotsu Agency/Sunrise. No profits were made in writing this.

Pairing: 3+4+3
Rating: R
Warnings: Shounen Ai/genfic.

Part 11
by kebzero


Heero Yuy's Personal Log

Duo's been asking how I'm getting along with the girls at college. I answer as is true - it's sort of a stand-off situation; I don't bother them, they don't bother me. Which means I'm getting along with them okay, I think. I selectively forgot to inform him about the last developments involving miss Jenkins.

I'm not a fool - I do grasp the fact he meant whether I had a girlfriend or not. I understand that is one part that is almost accepted will happen at college - dating. In retrospect, perhaps that was Melanie's real intent - to get the two of us in a situation where arranging a date, or having what could effectively pass as a date would be easy.

I suppose it is just as well things turned out the way they did. Some of my acquaintances at college has indeed gotten themselves involved in the dating game, but few of the relationships formed last much longer than a few weeks, maybe a couple of months. I only know of three couples that have stayed together for more than six months. If any of the student couples are likely to end up married, I'd bet on them.

Then again, Bradley was with Valerie from early fall last year and up until easter. He said they'd split up due to 'personal differences'. She said they'd split up because he'd been seeing others. Different viewpoints, but the same thing, really. He felt he could sleep around, she didn't.

Bradley's theory on always telling lies is obviously flawed, but I think I've started to see another pattern. More often than not, I hear Wufei and Duo complain about Sally and Hilde, respectively - phrases like 'Hilde can be such a bitch', or 'Sally doesn't know how to mind her own business'. I'm almost led to believe that bad-mouthing someone is a certain sign you really care for that someone.

The fault of that theory is that Trowa doesn't seem to speak ill of Catherine - but perhaps siblings fall outside of this category. I don't say such things about Relena, but since that is also closer to a sibling thing than romance, I suppose that is okay.

I'm not certain how to test this theory - and I'm concerned I'll again have a disfavorable result. We're invited to stay here until the end of the month, and I don't want to alienate the others over these questions - not until it's time to leave. Maybe I'll ask them then.

There is an adage that goes 'distance makes the heart grow fonder'. If this phrase holds, my own theory must be correct, for every time Duo has come back from a call with Hilde, he's found some new expletive to tie to her name, if no further explanation as to why. I tried to ask once, but Quatre quickly put his hand over my knee, which I took to be a caution.

Wufei is still requesting that we sign up at the first possible opportunity. As I've already told him, I do not wish to join the Preventers until I feel I have something to offer them. I could never be a field agent - my vow not to fire a gun ever again includes for training or recreational purposes. I might end up developing weapons, but I will never use them.

This would bring up a complication during the test phase, but I'm sure I can get someone to assist me pulling the trigger.

We're going to head down to the sea tomorrow. I'm looking forward to the chance of a comfortable swim where I'm not contained by tiled concrete and breathing pool chemicals.

-end file- Yuy, Heero

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