fiction by merith

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  his first kill

pairings: none
warnings: angst, drama, violence

  protection from you

[ incomplete ]
pairings: 1+2+1, 1x2x1, 3+4
warnings: yaoi, angst, drama, shifting pov... for now. please see individual chapter for additional warnings

prologue | 1 | 2 | 3

  solitude in white

pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai, au, language, angst

1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | epilogue

  solitude in white: in the future


- gift art for 'solitude in white' by porcelain

[ stay with me ]

  midnight chocolate

pairing: 2X1
warnings: yaoi, touches of angst

- art for 'midnight chocolate' by jurty

[ at the door ]

  a matched set of ficlets

pairing: 1+2
warnings: more than the usual hints of shounen ai, but not quite lemon...


  the good in little things

[ a series of related fics - now complete! ]

  the good in little things

pairing: 1+2
warning: duo pov


  a little each day

pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai, duo pov


  on chairs and poets

pairing: 1+2
warning: duo pov


  degrees of separation

pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai, duo pov


  pendulum swing

pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai, duo pov


  in tandem

pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai, duo pov

- art for 'in tandem' by porcelain

  [ duo's vision of heero ]

  being there

pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai, duo pov


  laundry rabbits and random thoughts

pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai, duo pov


  the list

pairing: 1+2
warning: shounen-ai, heero pov


  raking leaves

pairing: 1+2
warning: shounen-ai, duo pov


  neighborly intentions

pairing: 1+2
warning: shounen-ai, hint of ncs, duo pov


  not there

pairing: 1+2
warning: shounen-ai, heero pov


  defying logic

pairing: 1+2
warning: shounen-ai, heero pov


  just routine

pairing: 1+2
warning: shounen-ai, duo pov


  what couples do

pairing: 1+2
warning: shounen-ai, duo/heero pov


  as each day comes

pairing: 1+2
warning: shounen-ai, duo pov


  canvas

pairing: heero/duo
warning: shounen-ai, heero pov


  at the end of our year

pairing: implied heero/duo, trowa/quatre, wufei/relena
warning: bl, fluff/waff, slight angst, brief mention of character death




  transition from darkness

[ incomplete ]
pairings: 2+R, 1x2
warnings: shounen-ai, death

1 |

  the wire cutter

pairing: 1+2
warnings: touch of shounen-ai

- artwork by jurty

  [ a portrait of duo ]

  a pocketful of change

pairing: 2X1X2
warnings: yaoi, humor, citrus

  a warm wind blowing

pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai, angst, sap

  a warm wind blowing: in the future

  a touch of sun

pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai

  honor thy mother

pairings: none
warnings: none

  mitigated remorse

pairing: 3X4
warnings: shounen-ai, spoilers, angst

  nourishment

pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai, angst, wufei pov

  possession

pairing: 1X2
warnings: shounen-ai, language

  the dreamcatcher

pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai

  the stow away

pairing: 1X2
warnings: yaoi, language, lemon

  sleepy muddle

[ sequel to 'a touch of sun' ]
pairing: 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai

  the slow heal

pairing: dorothy + hilde
warnings: shoujo-ai

  best gift

pairing: 1X2
warnings: yaoi, sap

  cookie lessons

pairing: 1X2
warnings: yaoi, hint of citrus, sap

  meeting success

pairing: 2X1
warnings: yaoi, language, lemon

  where i fit

pairing: 2X1X2
warnings: shounen-ai

  love slave

pairing: 1X2
warnings: yaoi, lime


  to find meaning

[ an ongoing arc ]

  the gunman

pairing: very little 1+2
warnings: possibly shounen-ai, au-ish


  the martyr

pairing: hint of 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai (?), au-ish


  the survivor

pairing: hint of 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai (?), au-ish


  the thief

pairing: hint of 1+2
warnings: shounen-ai (?), au-ish


  ice cream talent

pairing: 2X1
warnings: yaoi, lemon, pwp

  every morning

pairing: duo/heero
warnings: hint of yaoi, hints of bdsm

  silently whispering

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: shounen-ai, sap

  punishing hands

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, lemon, hint of bdsm, possible squick

  postcards from africa: dawn

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, post ew, angst

  in the barrio

pairing: quatre/trowa, heero/duo
warnings: shounen-ai, au, quatre pov

  on comfort and friends

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: shounen-ai, fluff, sap

  something for anything

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, language, shifting pov, lemon

  time to quit

pairing: a little duo/heero
warnings: shounen-ai

  requited opportunity

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: shounen-ai, au

  requited opportunity: two years later

  knew you'd understand

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: shounen-ai, bit of sap

  just to be

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: shounen-ai

  government cheese

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: shounen-ai, duo pov, language, mention of past rape/killing/beatings, suggestive talk

  government cheese: a year in the future


  hits of the 80's drabble collection

[ an ongoing collection of songfics ]

  1 - a moment aside

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: strong angst

  2 - passion's prison

pairing: noin/zechs
warnings: hints of sex, mild angst

  3 - going nowhere

pairing: 1+2 friendship, 2X2
warnings: angst, mildly depressing, masturbation, duo pov, language

  4 - our leather clad world

pairing: duo/heero
warnings: yaoi, touch of BDSM, language, duo pov

  5 - touch you once

pairing: zechs/treize
warnings: yaoi, a bit of angst, reference to sex

  6 - making plans

pairing: quatre-centric
warnings: angst


  the remedy

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: shounen-ai, odd

  fishing in the dark

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: shounen-ai, a bit of sap

  my life as a sextoy

pairings: oc?/duo, oc?/heero, duo/heero, quatre/trowa
warnings: yaoi, a bit of a squick (maybe), suggestiveness, a death (sort of) and a poor attempt at humor

  when we were (twenty)six

pairing: duo/heero
warnings: yaoi, fluff

  name calling

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, sappy

  kismet

pairing: duo+heero+relena
warnings: none

  one thing we've got

pairings: heero and duo
warnings: yaoi, angst, citrus

  put away wet

pairings: duo/duo, duo/heero
warnings: masturbation, showersex (is this a warning?) male/male sex, language, a tad cliché

  meeting the press

pairings: quatre/trowa, duo/heero
warnings: yaoi, adult content, possible squick, abuse of humor

  caught in the moment

pairing: zechs/noin
warnings: het, masturbation, adult situations

  cat's cradle

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, angst, older heero and duo (about 34), adult situations, an oc child

1 | 2 | 3

  one step

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, light angst

  a different hue

pairings: none
warnings: none

  early one morning

pairings: quatre/duo (sorta), heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, pervy friends, humor, language

  wishes, hopes and dreams

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: shounen-ai

  maximum distance

pairing: none
warnings: spoiler for eps 8 & 9




  christmas drabbles

  special kink drabble #1

      heero/duo

  special kink drabble #2

      treize/zechs

  special kink drabble #7

      duo

  special kink drabble #8

      heero/duo

  special kink drabble #9

      zechs/trowa




  bad desire

pairings: duo/heero - hinted duo/quatre, touch of one of the boysXofc
warnings: yaoi, masturbation, strong sexual innuendo

  breaking a sweat

pairings: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, touch of angst, boys being rough

  mister chang dances

pairings: heero/duo, wufei/relena
warnings: shounen-ai, a touch of het

  no greater glory

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, high angst, very sad

  not only in health

[ companion fic to 'mister chang dances' ]
pairings: heero/duo, hints of wufei/relena
warnings: yaoi, possible squick

  death by cashmere

pairings: none
warnings: none

  highway markers

pairings: none
warnings: angst

  two out of three

pairings: zechs/oc, mention zechs/relena
warnings: mentions of het, incest

  watch me spin

pairings: heero/duo, quatre/trowa
warnings: yaoi, au, sex, language, duo pov, angst

1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | epilogue

  stages of love

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, citrus, angst and probably other things before the series is complete

   :|: attraction - romance - passion - intimacy - commitment

   :|: desire - excitement - plateau of arousal - orgasm - resolution

- continuation of 'postcards from africa'

                 :|: pride - envy with greed - wrath/anger

                 :|: lust - gluttony - sloth - greed

   :|: dawn - noon - afternoon - evening - night

  stages of love

[ an ongoing series ]
pairing: zechs/trowa
warnings: yaoi, citrus, angst and probably other things before the series is complete

   :|: attraction - romance - passion - intimacy - commitment

   :|: desire - excitement - plateau of arousal - orgasm - resolution

  one tin soldier

pairings: none
warnings: none


  from boys to soldiers to men
[ an ongoing au story arc ]

pairings: friendships in the beginning, leading to heero/duo, quatre/trowa
warnings: see individual fics



  late night dessert

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: none

  writ of fate

pairings: none
warnings: none

  witchita-topeka

pairings: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, citrus

  kfc

pairings: none
warnings: humor

  o-wim-o-weh, o-wim-o-weh

pairings: heero/duo
warnings: none, really...

  slipping into tired

pairings: none unless you squint
warnings: a bit of angst

  pane to pain

[ sequel to 'slipping into tired' ]
pairing: quatre/trowa
warnings: a bit of angst and a touch of sap

  true sign

pairings: heero/duo, hilde/dorothy
warnings: none

  the price i pay

pairing: milliardo/relena
warnings: het, incest

  doing vegas

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, citrusy content

  barrio boy

[ sequel to 'in the barrio' ]
pairings: quatre/trowa, heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, au

  over the moon

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, citrus


  drabbles

   1 - heero/duo

   2 - heero/duo

   3 - quatre

   4 - quatre - a sequel to drabble 3

   5 - heero/duo

   6 - heero/duo

   7 - trowa/zechs

   8 - quatre/trowa

   9 - heero/duo

  10 - heero/duo


  unwitting performance

pairing: heero/duo, with zechs on the side (not a threesome)
warnings: yaoi, au, cross-dressing/panties!heero, bondage, voyeurism, oral, dirty talk

  in a moment

pairing: heero/duo, relena - friendship
warnings: shounen-ai, shoujo-ai

  showing metal

pairings: quatre/trowa
warnings: shounen-ai

  i shaved my legs for this?

pairing: heero/duo, hilde
warnings: hint of shounen-ai, quasi-humor, a touch of sadness, hfo (hilde finds out)

  a life less hidden

pairings: hilde/relena
warnings: yuri, ungraphic sex, shoujo ai

  8675309

pairings: zechs/relena
warnings: hints at bdsm, piercings, mindgames, incest

  limousine drabble

pairings: none
warnings: none

  bloodhound drabble

pairings: implied heero/duo, and touched wufei/trowa
warnings: heavy sexual innuedo (not of my own making for a change!)

  what a woman wants

pairings: dorothy/quatre, quatre/trowa
warnings: ncs/rape, het sex, language, hints of yaoi

  staring at the sun

pairing: heero and duo
warnings: yaoi, strong angst, first person pov

  come with me

pairing: heero and duo
warnings: yaoi, masturbation, crossdressing

  lunch, or something like it

pairings: quatre, duo friendship, mentions of quatre/trowa & heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, silliness


  more drabbles

   1 - heero/duo

   2 - heero/duo

   3 - heero/duo

   4 - quatre/trowa

   5 - heero/duo


  stuck in place

pairings: none - duo centric
warnings: odd, not happy - not for everyone

  lemon advent stories

[ a series of requested ficlets ]
see individual stories for pairings and warnings

  sugar and spice

pairing: implied heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, lame attempt at humor, implied adult situation

  games we play

pairing: trowa/quatre
warnings: bl, au, angst, kids

  paper angels

pairings: heero/duo, relena/wufei
warnings: bl, light angst, language

  getting it right

pairing: heero and duo
warnings: shounen-ai, high anxiety, language, not a deathfic!

  olly olly oxen free

pairing: heero and duo
warnings: bl, pov, a bit sappish, language

  stages of love: next round

pairing: heero and duo
warnings: yaoi, au, mild angst

   :|: attraction - romance - passion - intimacy - commitment

  january confessions

pairing: heero and duo
warnings: bl, light angst

  rose is pink by any other name

pairing: duo, hilde, hints of duo liking heero
warnings: fluff

  drabble

pairing: trowa/quatre
warnings: yaoi, citrus

  haulin'

pairings: heero/duo, quatre/trowa - both implied
warnings: bl, au, language

  stages of love: the five stages of sexual response

pairing: quatre/dorothy
warnings: au, language, sexual situations

   :|: desire - excitement - plateau of arousal - orgasm - resolution

  stages of love: exploration of a relationship through the five senses

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: au, language, sexual situations

   :|: sight - hearing - touch - smell - taste

  drabbles

  drabble 11

      heero/duo

  drabble #12

      heero + relena friendship

  drabble #13

      duo

  drabble #14

      heero/duo

  drabble #15

      trowa/quatre

  drabble #16

      heero

  drabble #17

      heero/duo

  drabble #18

      heero/duo




  in times of need

pairings: hilde, duo, hints of heero/duo
warnings: sap, mild angst, mention of the monthlies

  only in vegas

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, rough sex, lemon

  skyrockets in flight

pairing: dorothy and relena
warnings: yuri, citrus

  iron smut - vampires

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, smut

  nihao, my... concubine?

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, smut

  sex drabbles

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: yaoi, smut

  still the one

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, language

  taking the e line

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, au-ish?

  bedtime for pookie

pairing: heero/duo and pookie
warnings: yaoi, citrusy

  filling in time

pairing: trowa/zechs
warnings: hints of seduction

  cake walk

pairings: heero/duo (hints of trowa/quatre)
warnings: bl, cussing, au-ish

  blue sky vacation

pairing: trowa and quatre
warnings: yaoi

  comfortably numb

pairing: none - just duo
warnings: use of illegal substance, slightly depressing

  xeroxed condition

pairing: quatre/trowa
warnings: bl, au

  drabble requests 1

see individual drabbles for pairings and warnings

  so feel it, don't fight it, go with the flow

by merith and misanagi
pairing: duo and heero
warnings: ua, language, use of drugs

  naked ties

pairing: trowa/quatre
warnings: yaoi, pov, au,light bondage, piercings, citrus

  propitator

pairing: trowa/quatre
warnings: yaoi, lemon

  propitator: two years in the future - back in phoenix

  like an ocean roar

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, sexual situation

  drabble requests 2

see individual drabbles for pairings and warnings

  frost on the pumpkin

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, waff, heero as a farmer type

  in a pinch

pairing: hints at heero/duo
warnings: self-pleasuring, inadvertant cross-dressing

  cutting resistance

pairing: heero/duo - sort of
warnings: hints of bl, boys who shave

  just a house

pairing: none - heero and duo friendship
warnings: just a tiny touch scary, and a tad of angst, and a smidge of fluffy and stuff

  walk the line

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: commercialism, bl, sap

  castle in the sand

pairing: heero, duo
warnings: au, chibi

  the restless rust

by merith and misanagi
pairing: duo and heero
warnings: au

  2006 lemon advent stories

[ a series of requested ficlets ]
see individual stories for pairings and warnings

  up on the roof

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, semi-public sex, duo pov

  11:22

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, sexual content - double masturbation, voyeurism (of a sort), pure smut for the sake of smut

  one week

[ incomplete ]
pairings: heero/duo (mixed friendships)
warnings: au (fairy tale of sorts), bl, sexual/adult situation, off-beat humor, nice relena

prologue |

  giving just a little

pairing: heero and duo (focus on the eventual)
warnings: au, a little fluffy

  marmalade kiss

pairings: heero/duo, wufei/relena
warnings: bl, post ew au-ish type, a little ooc

  in wisdom, we weep

pairing: wufei/relena
warnings: angst, het, quasi-post ew

  stages of love

pairing: trowa/quatre
warnings: bl, angst, sap, cirtus

   :|: envy - surprise - compassion - regret - hope

  28 days of february

[ a fic a day for the month of february ]
pairings: see individual fics
warnings: see individual fics

  centerfold

pairings: trowa/quatre, heero/duo
warnings: bl, implied sex, masturbation, talk of sex/sexual situations, language, pov (trowa's), au, voyeurism

  the mystic

pairings: trowa/quatre, heero/duo
warnings: a little language, a little BL, but little else

  circle of friends

pairings: gen with bare hints of trowa/quatre
warnings: language, tales of pilots pasts, angst

  supply run

pairing: heero,duo
warnings: innuendo, wacky humor

  in stockings and lace

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, crossdressing!duo, au, language, innuendo, semi-voyeurism, sexual suggestions, and at least a half-dozen things someone could find objectionable

  the human element

pairings: heero/duo (hinted), trowa/quatre (implied)
warnings: silliness, bl, poor attempt at humor

  drabble requests 3

see individual drabbles for pairings and warnings

  when we were young

[ a collection of school based ficlets ]

  middle ground

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, implied sexual situations, some waff

  drabble requests 4

see individual drabbles for pairings and warnings

  justice served

pairing: heero/duo (implied), hilde
warnings: angst, references to character trauma and violence

  drabble requests 5

see individual drabbles for pairings and warnings

  pretend like it's the weekend

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: sap, bl, hints at more than kissing

  incredibly you

pairing: heero, duo (fondness implied)
warning: hints of sap

  from the east, the sun

pairings: heero/duo, trowa/quatre
warnings: oc child, soft angst, bl, light violence, adult situations, language

  the beach house

[ incomplete ]
pairings: wufei/relena, heero/duo (implied)
warnings: some language, het, (hinted) BL, a small touch of angst, sap

1 | 2 | 3

  february 2008 writing challenge - heero and duo

see individual ficlets for warnings

  february 2008 writing challenge - trowa and quatre

[ incomplete ]
see individual ficlets for warnings

  imitating art

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, humor sap

  under the small top

pairings: none
warnings:none

  like the romans

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl. language, nudity, sexual situations

  experimental game

pairings: heero/duo, trowa/quatre (implied), relena/hilde (sort of)
warnings: shoujo ai (that's girl-love, non-yuri), bl, language

  from the ashes

pairings: non-pairing - trowa, dorothy
warnings: mention of personal violence, hints of rape

  song ficbits

see individual ficbits for pairings and warnings

  all the way

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, language, implied sex, sexual situation, dialog fic

  mercy

pairing: trowa/quatre
warnings: bondage, bl, sexual situation/theme

  on the steps of a slow afternoon in july

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, language

  changes in latitude

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, language, some angst, some sap, sexual situation

  conjunctive point
    stages of love: times of day

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: au, language, sexual situations

   :|: morning - el manana
   :|: noon - back 2 good
   :|: afternoon - man in motion
   :|: evening - misguided angel
   :|: night - head over feet

  new years

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, sappy, cliched

  all these things

pairing: heero/duo
warnings: bl, au, language angst, sap

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